At Chacruna: Six Playful Lessons from a Transgender Journey Through Ayahuasca Integration

Dee Adams

Most journeys start with one step, but the beginning of my transgender journey began with an emphatic, “No!”

In the dark finale of an ayahuasca ceremony, I had asked to see the deepest part of myself. The deepest part of me conjured an image of me as a beautiful, shining woman. Everywhere I looked it was Woman-Me. She was dancing, singing, moving effortlessly through the darkness. She multiplied and spread, kaleidoscoping my vision in an infinite twirling presence of laughter and joy. She looked at me with a brilliant smile, a smile I had yet to experience in my life, and held her hands out to me in invitation... continue reading.